My First Talk with God

 "Ok clearly I don't talk to you often and therefore I haven't asked much from you. So this? Cancer? Really? So what do you want? Let's bargain? Let's deal? I'm told you are big on suffering. So have I not suffered enough? Have I not been a good enough person? Do I not treat others well? What?! What do you want from me?! Cuz this sucks my friend. Well, you give this some thought and let me know. But hurry. "

Tonight I toasted my gma and mom. Told them I wasn't ready to see em just yet. I'm scared and I'm sad. This shouldn't be. I don't want the rest of my life being this fight. I'm really not the "pink ribbon" kinda gal. I don't want this for Liz either. Wake me up, anytime now. Please.